4.19.2011

Wrong Side of the Bed

I definitely woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning. No explanation really. I just woke up in a horrible mood and everything is pissing me off or annoying me. I hate when I get like this because it is so rare. I feel like an asshole and I know I'm being an asshole, yet I'm powerless to stop it.

I hate hormones. They turn me into a crazy bitch occasionally. So be advised today. Don't take anything personally... It's not me talking, it's whatever makes us girls feel like ripping people's heads off.

There a few people I would absolutely LOVE running into today! People that I just don't like, that I'd like to give a piece of my mind. Or several pieces for that matter.

I feel like a boiling pot of soup...ready to overflow at any moment. UGHHHHH!!!! I don't even know where I'm going with this post. I'm just pissed off and don't know what to do. Work is annoying me, basketball is annoying me...everything is just stressful today for whatever reason.

When this happened at school, I could just lock myself in my room and hide in bed all day. Sparing the hearts and ears of those closest to me. But now I'm an adult and I don't have that luxury...

Aah...even my niece is in a mood today. Apparently she woke up in the same kind of state I did. At least it's normal for her to throw a tantrum...flailing around on the floor and screaming her head off. If only it were acceptable for 6'5 20-something year olds to do the same. Can you imagine? I think she sensed my mood, because the second I looked at her and tried to give her a hug, she ran the opposite direction and started crying. Oops..

But the second she crawled into someone's arms, she was much better. The scowl on her face melted away and she even cracked a smile. I don't know what it is, but when the arms of someone you love take you in, you automatically feel some relief of whatever is under your skin (yes, even when you don't know what's bugging you). It's as if their simple embrace says "I don't care that you're mad and a complete hormonal raging bitch right now...I still love you and everything is ok."

Sometimes we just need a hug.
Sometimes we just need to know that were loved.
Sometimes we just need kind words.
Sometimes we just need to be told good, happy things.
Sometimes we just need to be listened to.
Sometimes we just need to feel understood.
Sometimes we just need to feel important.

Bad moods happen. Sometimes without explanation. All I want to do is go crash in my bed and feel better :(

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