The Dog Days Are Just Beginning

Spring is going by so fast....bringing the dog days of summer for sure!

Life is going to be pretty busy until the middle of June. I guess that's a good thing, because it helps time go faster. Yes, I'm talking about time away from those you want to be around. It's hard to be apart. Especially when both of you are out doing things that you want to do and share with each other. I am SO looking forward to the day where that changes and we're actually together doing all of these things. I see it happening sooner rather than later.

Basketball is slowly coming to an end. States start tonight. After that, I believe we have 3 more tournaments..including one in Myrtle Beach and one in Wilmington. YAY!

I want to make a trip down to the beach with my friends and Sarah before this summer is a wrap. Just not sure when I can get everyone together. It always seems like someone has a conflict. 

I'm just ready to spend some time outside. I'm always cooped up in an office under the fluorescent lights...the only sun I get during the week is at lunch if we go somewhere and eat outside. I'm ready for water and cold beer. Sunburns and sunsets. I'm ready for a lot of things actually...

I hate feeling anxious..

A Home

When does the place you live become a 'home?'

The place you go home and rest your head every night. You cook and eat your meals there. You shower and get ready there. You host your friends. But when does it become a home?

Home is where the heart is.

I know where my heart is...that is my home.

Wrong Side of the Bed

I definitely woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning. No explanation really. I just woke up in a horrible mood and everything is pissing me off or annoying me. I hate when I get like this because it is so rare. I feel like an asshole and I know I'm being an asshole, yet I'm powerless to stop it.

I hate hormones. They turn me into a crazy bitch occasionally. So be advised today. Don't take anything personally... It's not me talking, it's whatever makes us girls feel like ripping people's heads off.

There a few people I would absolutely LOVE running into today! People that I just don't like, that I'd like to give a piece of my mind. Or several pieces for that matter.

I feel like a boiling pot of soup...ready to overflow at any moment. UGHHHHH!!!! I don't even know where I'm going with this post. I'm just pissed off and don't know what to do. Work is annoying me, basketball is annoying me...everything is just stressful today for whatever reason.

When this happened at school, I could just lock myself in my room and hide in bed all day. Sparing the hearts and ears of those closest to me. But now I'm an adult and I don't have that luxury...

Aah...even my niece is in a mood today. Apparently she woke up in the same kind of state I did. At least it's normal for her to throw a tantrum...flailing around on the floor and screaming her head off. If only it were acceptable for 6'5 20-something year olds to do the same. Can you imagine? I think she sensed my mood, because the second I looked at her and tried to give her a hug, she ran the opposite direction and started crying. Oops..

But the second she crawled into someone's arms, she was much better. The scowl on her face melted away and she even cracked a smile. I don't know what it is, but when the arms of someone you love take you in, you automatically feel some relief of whatever is under your skin (yes, even when you don't know what's bugging you). It's as if their simple embrace says "I don't care that you're mad and a complete hormonal raging bitch right now...I still love you and everything is ok."

Sometimes we just need a hug.
Sometimes we just need to know that were loved.
Sometimes we just need kind words.
Sometimes we just need to be told good, happy things.
Sometimes we just need to be listened to.
Sometimes we just need to feel understood.
Sometimes we just need to feel important.

Bad moods happen. Sometimes without explanation. All I want to do is go crash in my bed and feel better :(

Desire

OBSESSED... 'Desire' -Ryan Adams

Two hearts fading, like a flower.
And all this waiting, for the power.
For some answer, to this fire.
Sinking slowly. The waters higher.
Desire

With no secrets. No obsession.
This time I'm speeding with no direction.
Without a reason. What is this fire?
Burning slowly. My one and only.
Desire

You know me. You don't mind waiting.
You just can't show me, but God I'm praying,
That you'll find me, and that you'll see me,
That you run and never tire.
Desire


Apparently this has been on my computer for a while, although until a day ago, I never heard it. Now it's on repeat. Something about it just takes me away and my mind paints of a picture of where I'd here this song playing and so on and so forth.

Good vibes for sure!

Hell Week

Holy hell, the past 7 days have tested me in so many ways..

My patience, my faith in people, my strength, endurance...just to name a few!!

My roommate and I had to move out of where we were living. Fast. Our rent was going to be raised on us, and neither of us were prepared for that. Disadvantage of not signing a lease. Advantage? Being able to pack up and get the hell out of dodge in a mere week!

So that's what we did...we visited one apartment complex, and before we knew it, we were signing our lease. Leasing an apartment was rather amusing to me because Sarah was there for all of it. Being the rock star leasing professional that she is, she informed us of what questions to ask, etc. I must admit I was thoroughly enjoying watching the face of the girl who was showing us around while Sarah asked the questions. Too funny!

Moving day came...and went. This past weekend was insane. I don't think insane even covers the amount of work that was done this weekend. My aching body is a solid reminder, however. I literally feel like I have the flu my body hurts so bad.

In a matter of days, we packed up our spacious house and crammed everything into boxes, loaded up trucks loads of stuff and moved everything up 3 flights of stairs into our new, much smaller home. I am a lucky girl, however. Sarah had this weekend off, so she was there to help...and help she did! Tremendous help. Couldn't have done it without her. She gave up her time to do some not so fun manual labor... I owe her BIG time.

The kitchen is all unpacked, but now it's time to settle our rooms in and get everything squared away. Probably my least favorite part. Overall, I actually really like the new place...minus the fact that it's on the third floor, but hey, it's not like my ass couldn't use some resistance every day. I will miss the memories that I had from the old house, but I'm looking forward to the new ones I will make in my new home. I actually already have one. Sitting out on my balcony last night with Sarah watching the planes take off and having some amazing wine and conversation. Doesn't get much better than that!

I will post pictures once we get the place squared away! We couldn't have done this on our own. Thank you to Sarah, Andrew and Stephen from work and my family...my family cleaned that whole house and got it ready for someone else to move in. Thank you to all of you!!!

Whirlwind

This week is going to be a whirlwind!!!

My roommate and I will be moving into a new place by next Sunday. I love the apartment and can't wait to be settled. I will miss living in the house a lot. It's nice to be in a HOUSE, however, the bills are not so nice.

Living in an apartment will help me save so much money. I was doing fine living in the house, but I wasn't able to save at all. Everything went towards bills or rent. I need to be putting money back, so this is the best way to do that. My roommate is in the same position, so we are both pretty happy about the move actually.

I will miss things about the house...I have A LOT of good memories from the last 4 months :) A LOTTTTTT!!!! I'll never forget them. But now it's on to another adventure...did I mention the pool? I foresee many good times this summer :)

There is a lot more on my mind to write, but there is work to be done. Agency opened on Friday...FUN!

More later...