Productive Weekend

This weekend was actually pretty great! Although it didn't involve seeing my beautiful girlfriend, it was still awesome.

My roommate and I hung out pretty much all weekend.

I had a rough Friday night. It had been a weird day, and then I spent most of the night by myself. It's a little weird still when Friday night rolls around and I don't have plans. Just a little reminder that I'm growing up more every day. I don't mind being alone...just takes some getting used to. Friday night I was a little down, but spent the night watching movies with my roomie when he got home.

Woke up Saturday feeling pretty refreshed. I was looking forward to it all night because I knew it was going to be a gorgeous day. I got a few things done around the house, then made my way over to the 'rents house to pick up some stuff to do some yardwork. I called my roommate on the way back, picked us up some lunch and met him back at the house around 1:30. It was beautiful out! After we ate, we discussed where in the world to even start!! We decided to just start hacking away. 4 hours later we were done...tired, but done. I re-shaped all the bushes on the front of the house...unfortunately, using an electric hedger made my hands so numb that they shook the rest of the night every time I made a fist...weird feeling!

We also chopped down all the dead trees that were blocking part of the house. Our walkway now looks open and inviting, rather than scary and 'oh my God, something is going to jump out and eat me.' I've never had a yard to take care of, but I actually enjoy it a lot. Working outside all day is very therapeutic...so is swinging an ax or digging up plants haha.

We've been blessed with good weather as of late...hopefully it stays like this through my birthday next weekend/week.

I hate Sunday nights because I know Monday morning is looming around the corner. I'm actually anxious for this week to get started so that I move one day closer to next weekend...AKA celebrating my birthday and Sarah will be in town. I also have our first tournament that weekend...I'm excited to see how the girls have progressed since we started in February.

I also acquired another roommate this weekend. My friend Lauren moved into our third bedroom. I wish she was moving in under better circumstances, but we're still glad to have her. Tonight is really nice actually... After finishing some stuff in the yard most of the day with Stephen and Jacob, and after Lauren moved her stuff in, we're all sitting around just hanging out. Kevin came over and is cooking everyone dinner. Smells so good my mouth is watering. Good friends, good food, good wine...just need my girl!

"Fun" Fridays

Usually Fridays are awesome and I'm in a great, quirky, hyper, energetic, looking forward to 5:00 kinda mood.

Today is different, though. I wish I didn't take everything to heart so easily. There is just certain stuff that hits me hard. I hate when someone I love is messed with. I hate arguing, unless it's just for fun. I hate tension, unless it's the good kind. When any of the above happen, it always seems to hit me right in my core and there is really no good way of hiding it.

I was hoping to wake up and feel better, but, when either a cat in heat or a dying cat woke me up at 4, I knew Friday was going to be 'fun.'

My normal activities and habits are all screwed up and I feel like I'm all over the place. Hearing and reading stuff, but not processing.

I don't know...I have to find a way to not let every little thing get to me, but it's really hard when it's something that tugs on your heart strings.

It's still early, though...

Days Go By

It's weird when you start to feel yourself getting older. When you graduate and head off into the work world, you never dream you'll feel the way you do months later. You go from party animal with seemingly endless energy to this tired version of yourself that would rather sit at home on Friday night and relax in front of the tv. Partly because you're tired and partly because spending money makes you cringe a little.

This is where I'm at.

A year ago, when the week would be winding down, there wasn't even a question about my plans. After class was over, it was time to start partying with my friends...kicking off the weekend (and by weekend I mean Wednesday or Thursday night) right with a little liquid fun. Whatever night it was, we usually ended up out waaaay too late, etc. etc.

I'm lucky if I make it to midnight now.

When you graduate, you swear to yourself that you won't change. You will still go out allllll the time and do this and that; but the truth of the matter is, not many stick to that promise. I certainly haven't. Do I still go out? Of course...I'm in my young 20's.  But not nearly as often as I once did. Responsibility kicks in. I would say that becomes very apparent once you're out on your own. There is something about living on your own that makes something click in your head. It's like "Oh...no I can't really go out because I need to do laundry for work tomorrow." Or "Good God I can't even think about going out because I'm exhausted, the kitchen is a mess, I can't find my bed under my mountain of dirty clothes." Sometimes you just say screw it, and carry on with your old lifestyle. But I'd say that 90% of the time now, I choose staying in rather than going out.

Honestly, it's cheaper, safer and I usually have more fun. Plus I can wear sweats :-D

It's a weird feeling when you start hearing your brain throw around the words "settling down." I'm not lying when I said I have been a party animal in the past. Don't get me wrong, I still look to have a good time all the time. But I feel like something has changed inside of me. I want to be a better version of myself than I ever have been. Credit my girlfriend...I think we bring out each other's good sides. Most of the time at least. We still both revert to old tendencies, but we're young and human so whateverrrrrr. I just like where I'm at and how I feel. Plain and simple.

It's good to be in love. It's f'in fantastic actually.

Productivity...what is that again?

This is one of the few weekends I'll have to sleep in come up here shortly. I think I slept until maybe 10ish, but my loving girlfriend had work this morning, so I received early phone calls. I'm not complaining...she's the only one I DON'T care about calling and waking me up.

I have a lot to do today. I shit ton of laundry has piled up in my room. It really looks like my closet and drawers spewed everywhere. I can't live like that...maybe that's why I haven't slept well this week--the mess!!!!!

Ok, I'm sounding crazy...like my mom on a neurotic Saturday morning. I remember weekend mornings as a kid.  I'd try to sleep in...my room was right over the kitchen, so I'd drown out the cabinets shutting and the glasses and dishes clanging. I'd ignore the soothing aroma of freshly brewed coffee, pull my pillow over my head and try and sleep in. And then it would happen. I'd hear the vacuum turn on and I knew it was allllll over. One stair at a time, the demonic moaning of the vacuum would inch closer and closer to my room until finally it would happen. The damn thing would knock into my door "on accident" of course. Right mom... And then I'd be up and cleaning until the house was cleaner than an operating room. Lovelyyyyyy.

Today, my house is a shit hole. It's been a hellacious week. I've had zero time or energy to do anything. But alas! That is what Saturdays are for. Today's activities:

Wash car...when I say wash, I mean scrub and hope to God it comes clean. Haven't washed it since...nevermind I'm too embarrassed.
Wax car
Clean up house
Clean bathroom
Laundry...work clothes must be washed asap

Lastly and most importantly, prepare for Hurricane Sarah to come through ;-)

Gonna be a good day I think :)

Don't knock it, don't knock it

It's the little things that make me happy...

Listening to great music in some old school Kings of Leon while I write this

Cute texts from my girl

Driving home into beautiful sunsets

Re-watching videos of my cute little niece on my phone

These are just a few of the little things that make me infinitely happy :)

Today's track on repeat: Adele- To Make You Feel My Love

When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
Though winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing like me yet

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
To make you feel my love

To make you feel my love

This is perfect for today :)

"Bloodstream"- Stateless

Wake up
Look me in the eyes again
I need to feel your hand upon my face

Words can be like knives
They can cut you open
And then the silence surrounds you and haunts you

I think I might have inhaled you
I could feel you behind my eyes
You've gotten into my bloodstream
I could feel you floating in me

Words can be like knives
They can cut you open
And then the silence surrounds you and haunts you

I think I might have inhaled you
I could feel you behind my eyes
You've gotten into my bloodstream
I could feel you floating in me

The spaces in between
Two minds and all the places they have been
The spaces in between
I tried to put my finger on it
I tried to put my finger on it
I think I might've inhaled you

I could feel you behind my eyes
You've gotten into my bloodstream
I could feel you floating in me

I think I might've inhaled you
I could feel you behind my eyes
You've gotten into my bloodstream
I could feel you floating in me